One day, I will finish all my assignments early, like I always wanted to.
Friday, May 20, 2011
Monday, April 4, 2011
Pride
Pride is a deadly sin.
Being proud is not something to be proud of.
Have you ever had that feeling of guilt washing over you like a huge, kick-ass tidal wave as you literally watch someone start drowning in pain right in front of your eyes? Whether it's just a small thing that's upsetting them, or whether you know you're hurting them by not helping, the guilt that hits you is almost as deadly as the damage you've caused.
What goes around comes around right?
The thing that stops people from helping, from showing their concern and their weakness, from being the one to back out of a fight first and forfeit their dignity, is pride.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna close my eyes,
I don't wanna fall asleep cos I'll miss you babe,
And I don't wanna miss at thing
I don't wanna fall asleep cos I'll miss you babe,
And I don't wanna miss at thing
I MISS DESIGN
I MISS IT I MISS IT I MISS IT 
Today as I was doing these ridiculous maths questions in the first chapter of my $200 dollar maths text book that I'd bought for a one-semester-long maths paper, I thought to myself: "Why am I doing this?" Why? I never liked maths, never will, and it's definitely impossible for me to even begin to like the boring and unsatisfying multi-choice maths questions I have to do for this course.
WHY AM I NOT DOING DESGIN?
Sigh. Because this is the practical and successful and foolproof pathway through life. Comp sci will guarantee a good, relatively high paying job upon graduation. It requires me to take out no student loan as the three-year-degree fits nicely inside my three-year-scholarship. Upon graduation I work, I earn money, I do whatever the hell I want, get life experience, save up, travel, explore, live... then BAM I'm rich and happy and still in my ripe early 20s.
Today as I was doing these ridiculous maths questions in the first chapter of my $200 dollar maths text book that I'd bought for a one-semester-long maths paper, I thought to myself: "Why am I doing this?" Why? I never liked maths, never will, and it's definitely impossible for me to even begin to like the boring and unsatisfying multi-choice maths questions I have to do for this course.
WHY AM I NOT DOING DESGIN?
Sigh. Because this is the practical and successful and foolproof pathway through life. Comp sci will guarantee a good, relatively high paying job upon graduation. It requires me to take out no student loan as the three-year-degree fits nicely inside my three-year-scholarship. Upon graduation I work, I earn money, I do whatever the hell I want, get life experience, save up, travel, explore, live... then BAM I'm rich and happy and still in my ripe early 20s.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Night-time; insomnia; hungry; so hungry
It's 1:37am in the morning. Why am I still up? :( I did basically zilch study for MATHS108 today. Got another 3 hour lab tomorrow morning. Need to shower. Need to decide what to wear. Need to do MATHS108...
Friday, March 11, 2011
Home
So I recently moved away from home to another city for university. I had been waiting for this change to happen for over a year. Waiting and yearning for it, for some sort of change and escape from the dull, monotonous and suffocating life I'd lived back home. I convinced myself to hate repetition, routine, familiarity, and instead to embrace change, excitement and unpredictability.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Tell me reader
Tell me reader,
Who are you right now?
In the eyes of others- both those who hate and those who love you, and in the eyes of yourself: Who are you? What are you?
If you can answer that reader, then tell me some more:
Can you truly remember what sort of person you were when you were a child?
What you wanted, who you were close to?
Can you remember how and when you changed to the person you are now?
Tell me again reader,
What is it like living your life? Are you happy? Sad? Angry? Content but feel like you're missing something truly amazing? Depressed but feel like it can surely get better?
Or have you lost all hope, like Luke Skywalker.
Now tell me one last thing reader, the last thing I want to know.
We are currently in the future of your past, you are the adult of that child.
Who could you have been in this future, and now, who will you be from this point on?
Who are you right now?
In the eyes of others- both those who hate and those who love you, and in the eyes of yourself: Who are you? What are you?
If you can answer that reader, then tell me some more:
Can you truly remember what sort of person you were when you were a child?
What you wanted, who you were close to?
Can you remember how and when you changed to the person you are now?
Tell me again reader,
What is it like living your life? Are you happy? Sad? Angry? Content but feel like you're missing something truly amazing? Depressed but feel like it can surely get better?
Or have you lost all hope, like Luke Skywalker.
Now tell me one last thing reader, the last thing I want to know.
We are currently in the future of your past, you are the adult of that child.
Who could you have been in this future, and now, who will you be from this point on?
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